2008/07/30

"solitude enfin"


Solitude enfin.....................................Finally, Aloneness,
bonjour les jardins du Palais Royal.....good morning, green spaces of the "Palais Royal"
J'arrive attends-moi,...........................I'm coming, please wait for me,
pourvu que je ne te perds pas............I don't want to lose you
je t'aime, viens,..................................I love you (Aloneness), come to me,
tu es là,..............................................here you are!

Solitude enfin.......................................Finally, Aloneness
bonjour les jardins du Palais Royal
j'esquive..............................................I'm avoiding, but,
mais parfois je ne veux que toi...........sometimes I want to see only you.
je t'aime viens, ....................................I love you, come to me,
solitude enfin .....................................Finally, Aloneness.

Solitude enfin......................................Finally, Aloneness
bonjour les jardins du Palais Royal
je t'ouvre grands les bras.....................I welcome you with wide-open arms
j'avais tellement besoin de toi...............I needed you so much,
j'étais pas bien.....................................I didn't feel well.

Solitude enfin........................................Finally, Aloneness
j'en pouvais plus....................................I couldn't go on anylonger,
j'avais plus le moral...............................I lost courage
la rage, les orages,...............................inmidst anger, storms.....
c'est bon l'silence.................................how soothing, the silence!
repos huis clos.....................................resting behind closed doors
et plus besoin de rien dire...................no need to speak anymore,
plus besoin de fournir,.........................no need to provide anymore,
c'est ça le vrai plaisir............................this is real pleasure!

Solitude enfin........................................Finally, Aloneness,
bonjour les jardins du Palais Royal
je t'aime viens ......................................I love you, come to me,
t'as un visage........................................you have a face:
il est bleu nuit, ......................................it is blue as the night,
ou mauve, ou gris.................................or violet, or grey,
ce n'est pas triste..................................There is nothing sad
les insomnies........................................in sleeplessness,
les p'tits matins.....................................early in the morning
à se retrouver seule................................and alone.

Solitude enfin........................................Finally, Aloneness
bonjour les jardins du Palais Royal
Après le déluge:....................................then the flood of:
la foule qui roule..................................rolling crowds:
le défilé des mal-aimés, .......................the train of the disliked,
des compliqués,.................................. the complicated,
des dépriments,....................................the depressing...
..............................................................

Solitude enfin.......................................Finally, Aloneness,
bonjour les jardins du Palais Royal
je me protège .......................................I protect myself,
je me défends,......................................I defend myself,
referme-toi sur moi...............................clasp me - surround me
Solitude enfin:......................................finally, Aloneness:
te voilà..................................................here you are.


(Alexandra Pandev; author: F. Bernheim)

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July 30, 2008

2008/07/27

memories






Walking the streets of youth a picture emerges: a picture of perfect sequence of all that which just had to happen as it had. Sequence of feelings and emotions of that period like several little instances filled with those vivid colors as if to illustrate the eternal play, eternal movement of Life as a manifestation of a Will greater than we....................

A play where each little detail had its purpose, all fitting for the beauty and glory of the true Source. This (little town) had been a stage of great play of perfectness however desperate some moments might have been.

People walking around, hurrying, shopping, shouting, looking, talking... they cannot see “it”. While running on it, they cannot see the stage upon which this play had been performed. These streets had been the stage: they aren't anymore. But that does not matter: for the world invisible flashlights seem to illuminate for a little while instances of the past, as if to let relive some moments with their respective purpose or meaning for a short while just for the Glory of the one Source which pervades everything without fault.

The closing scene: the whole picture, so near yet so far; nearness being expressed by perfect understanding of each action, error, emotion, feeling and thought of those past moments and their place in the sequence of the Big Picture. Remoteness being expressed by the impossibility of identification with this evolving personality of the past who is no more. Yet, identification is ever-possible with the Being as a soul-witnesser who had been observing at that time and is observing right now.

A feeling of great awe is the consequence: as each instance of the past, so each present moment has its purpose and meaning, but none of them is so important as to worry about it. Each of them is in the hands of the eternal play of universe, and its Source is greater than we. We act, but we have nothing to “do”; all what is needed is to agree with our existence. We only need to observe, to marvel at the great mystery, seemingly hidden but visible in the outward picture, the manifestations of what is ever-present behind all this: the Real, which supports all these outer events, which creates anew through these outer events.

"What is visible through the spiritual eye is real”, so there remains only stillness and awe... “all what is and acts, it is under Your Will."

In this light, all what happens right now, all wonderings and worryings right now seem to tell "no need to worry, you have not any control over things, you cannot make things happen. All is obeying the Great Will."

"It is not about DOING, but is about BEING.

BE, and in the stillness of being, you will understand.

There may be little to do, very little."

..........thank you.

July 27, 2008

2008/06/30

Creating the distance

"The inner eye, as we might call it, sees by a different, non-physical light. This seeing, too, must run the gauntlet of the mind's preconceptions. If we can achieve the right mind set, it too reaches our mind. There it becomes meaning. When you have succeeded, you will experience what you see with a sensation as if you were a little distant from the scene that you observe. Some have described it as like watching a movie. You are seeing the world, but you are not really a part of it. When you achieve this, that is it. That is all of it. There is nothing more to train you to do. But as you go from scene to scene looking with your new vision, there will be a lot about the world that you will discover. It will be a fascinating and never ending joy. The beauty of this mental state is also that it gives you a chance to choose your reactions rather than to have reacted before you even have a chance to think about what you want to do or say. This allows patience to express itself through you. Because love is patient, it allows love to express as never before in your life. ...................

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There are actually split seconds in which the options present themselves. These are very critical moments to watch for, and with one-pointedness of mind, they will become apparent. These moments of decision last approximately 1/10 000 th of a second, as estimated by kinesiologic testing. The miracle arises in this gap. In this instant, the Holy Spirit is present and available directly by God's grace. In the ego's minute gap, the Holy Spirit empowers the opportunity, and this is the “space” in which free will operates. It is this moment that the warrior can choose mercy or cruelty, life or death.

Prayer and spiritual commitment give assent to the Presence as the Holy Spirit to 'create a space', as it would seem, in the progression of the sequences in temporal time for that critical instant of awareness. Based on the laws of the universe, that split instant does not open unless invited. God forces no one to choose Him. All spiritual progress is by invitation and free choice, which are consequences of prayer and spiritual intention, for these gaps are hidden gifts.”

[Dr. David R. Hawkins; "I - subjectivity and reality", p 101-102]

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ".............. You will also find that you begin to see many things very clearly, things that used to be quite unclear. Like my art friend, you are developing a kind of vision that sees unerringly. And you paint on the canvas of life according to the accuracy of what you see. Your life itself will become a great work of art, beautiful for others to behold. But you won't be thinking about that. And you won't realize that it is happening until after it is well begun. Furthermore, if you seek to create a beautiful life through this practice, you will lose the objective state of mind that is needed to accomplish the task. Therefore, you must only pursue my directions with a sincere desire to see things as they really are. The biggest obstacle to seeing things as they are lies in your ego tendency to seek glory. Unfortunately, we all want to see ourselves in the best possible light. This will block your seeing. The inner eye, what I call the spiritual eye, cannot accept blinders that limit it's vision. It is all or nothing. You either open the eye and see whatever is there, or you close it. Many close it rather than see what they are really like. I would like to make a plea with you not to do so. There may be a great fear that you have to overcome. It takes a bit of courage to face the truth about yourself. But when you muster that courage, you will find that the truth is much less than you feared. Yes, you are a nothing. But everyone is a nothing. So what! We embrace truth, or we embrace darkness. Truth is literally a light by which we see, by which the inner eye grasps the scope of the scene before it. When we reject the truth about ourselves, we become unable to see. It would be the same with physical light. If we kept all light from falling upon us, yes, we would not see ourselves. But neither would we see anything at all. Our physical eye depends upon the light reaching it for sight. Similarly, if we block the light called truth from reflecting upon us, then neither will it reach our spiritual eye. So you must be willing to see yourself and let yourself be seen. This is the nature of the fear you will face. At one time or another, we have all cheated in order to stand on that pedestal just a little longer. And so we all fear facing reality. But there are two reasons why, when you get courage and face it, that it will be very bearable. One reason is that the cheating was not a fully conscious thing. This is hard to understand until you let truth in, because without this light of truth, you aren't fully conscious. You think you are conscious, but you are not (the wise call it a dream state.) When you summon the courage to look, you will become conscious and by that experience, will see your previous unconsciousness. So it will not be such a big deal. But the biggest reason that you will find your fear unfounded is that in the moment that you summon the courage to truly look at yourself, you will find that you've changed. What you see will not be yourself, it will be who you used to be, even if just a moment before. Now, you are still nothing, but you are no longer less than nothing. And the nothing you are is a good nothing, who does not hurt others any more in order to raise himself up onto that pedestal. Be prepared, then, to see your insignificance. It will be one of the first truths you see.

The Mechanics of Inner Self-observation No one distinguishes in their language, but there are two ways to see. "I see the house across the street." Reflects seeing with the physical eye, revealed by physical light. But, "I see that you're irritated." Is a thing of the spiritual eye. The difference lies in how meaning is attached to the latter revealing that the light of truth always shining has been received by the spiritual eye and perceived as meaning by the mind. Awareness is a crucial ingredient in this process. It is like the retina of the spiritual eye. Experience somehow slams into us, caught by our awareness as it makes its impression inside of us. It activates certain tendencies to respond, like light fires up rods and cones in the physical eye. And if we can remain objective and watch this process, the experience translates into meaning in the mind. All too often, we cannot remain objective. Then we go on automatic pilot. There is little awareness. We react instinctively (and in character, I might add, a character we often resist seeing, for which reason we have shut out truth.) And we see nothing. No meaning congeals except later, we will have a sense of failure for our overreaction. And we will react automatically to that, too, trying to do something about it rather than just seeing it and not reacting further. And so, seeing outwardly with meaning depends on clearly seeing inwardly. And this is the secret. Gaining Attitudinal Altitude Remember the goal. It is similar in nature to the goal of the artist who seeks to see what he is about to paint in that special way that allows him not to be affected by preconceptions. It could be described as achieving a certain "distance" from his subject. It is a frame of mind that isn't very much by itself, but which enables a process that would be impossible or very difficult otherwise. It makes something easy. The state of mind consists of seeing the world with a little distance between you and the scene. You draw yourself out of the scene. You see as if looking through a camera that lies slightly behind and above the physical eyes. You see from here whether you look inwardly at your thinking or whether you look outwardly at the world. But to begin with, you look inwardly so that you can arise out of your dream state and raise your awareness. Your awareness is essential to help you know when you are seeing in this special way. Notice the "distance" between yourself and the scene you see with your eyes. This is the objective way of seeing. Love is a power. But you will not feel it come through you. It just will. And it will affect everyone around you. Some for good, some not. Be prepared for possible fireworks. Your patience and love convicts those who have no love. They will feel condemned. And if they aren't ready to face themselves, they will externalize their feeling, blaming YOU for condemning them. You, of course, have done nothing of the sort. You have just watched the scene in this objective way you now have. But you need to understand this response. Be ready to forgive them and overlook their reaction. They cannot help themselves. They are on automatic pilot. They have never understood how to turn it off. But you give them a chance now. Your love in its perfection, if you overlook and don't judge their error, gives them the first chance that they may have ever had. This is the nature of the effect you will forever have once you commit to this way of patience."

[C.N. 09/01/2002] ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

June 30, 2008

2008/06/28

Words

"Words are only approximations to meaning.
Meaning lies deeper and involves a connection with the "intention" or "direction" of a word used in context.
It is almost a connection of the spirit."
[C.N. 03/28/2002]
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June 28, 2008

2008/06/02

Beauty


Beauty

Beauty is the special divine Manifestation in the physical as
Truth is in the mind,
Love in the heart,
Power in the vital.

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Beauty is the way in which the physical expresses the Divine -
but the
principle and law of Beauty is something inward and spiritual
and expresses
itself through the form.
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Beauty is Ananda taking form - but the form need not be a physical shape. One speaks of a beautiful thought, a beautiful act, a beautiful soul. What we speak of as beauty is Ananda in manifestation;
beyond manifestation
beauty loses itself in ananda,
beauty and Ananda become
indistinguishably one.
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(Sri Aurobindo, "Integral Yoga")
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Seeing beauty is also:
seeing the soul behind, the spirit,
seeing two lines , hues, harmonies and expressive dispositions...
thus bringing into the object something that is in oneself, transmuting it by adding out of one's own being to it - as the artist too does something of the same kind but in another way.
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(idem, adapted)


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June 02, 2008

2008/04/27

The two Birds


"Like two birds
of golden plumage,

inseparable companions,
the individual self and the immortal Self
are perched on the branches of the selfsame tree.
The former tastes of the sweet and bitter fruits of the tree;
the latter, tasting of neither,
................calmly observes."

[The Mundaka Upanishad]
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"I am Arjuna.
Mounted upon my chariot
in the midst of a great battlefield,
I am bewildered.

Mankind is arrayed for destruction;
all those I cherish, now in opposition.
I’d rather flee in disgrace and dishonor
than to lay my hand against another.

My most intimate friend and
only confidant holds the reins.
Knowing me better than I know myself,
he alone I can trust and believe.

For he is my Self and I am confusion.

All that the mind can conceive, with its symbols, are mere metaphors.
Although the metaphors contain a life which is greater
............................than that of the symbols themselves;
they can never bring to mind the essence of life itself."
[anonymous]
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..........April 27, 2008 ....................................................................................

2008/04/15

"Un jour finir pêcheur" Gérard Manset (1985)

Un jour, finir pêcheur....................One day winding up as a fisherman
Parce que ça grandit l'homme.......Because that's what elevates man
Heureux comme ça,.......................To be satisfied with this
Pas gagner plus d'argent................no earning a living anymore.
Le matin, me lever,.........................Get up in the morning
Pas connu, pas guetté,....................unknown, unexpected by anyone
Parce que ça fait mal,....................because that's what hurts,

Ça fait mal a l'homme,..................That's what hurts man
La célébrité....................................Being known.
[...]
Parce que ça grandit l'homme,.......
That's what elevates man:
De vivre sans parler,......................To live without speaking
Vivre sans paroles..........................to live without words
Et d'apprendre à se taire,...............and to learn to keep quiet,
Regarder sans voir.........................Not seeing them while looking
Les enfants qui dansent..................
at the dancing children at
Au bord du miroir...........................the edge of the mirror.


Mais c'est toujours trop loin,...........But all this's still too far away
Toujours dans le noir,....................still in the unknown
Inaccessible,...................................inaccessible,
Pareil au cœur de la cible..............just like a bull's eye of a target.


Un jour, finir pêcheur,..................One day winding up as a fisherman
[...]
Mais c'est toujours trop loin,.........But that's still too far away
A portée de la main,......................within reach, but...
Inaccessible,.................................inaccessible
Pareil au cœur de la cible..............just like a bull's eye of a target.


Un jour, finir meilleur,...................One day being a better man
Tuer le mal de l'homme,................annihilate the pain of man
Se libérer de tout,..........................getting rid of all
Prendre dans la mer.....................Taking out of the sea
Les coraux, les vipères,..................corals and vipers
Et tout ça dans la main,................and all this with one's hands
Sans lumière et sans gaz...............Without light, without gas
Et sans barbe qu'on rase,..............without shaving a beard...


Un jour, finir pêcheur,....................One day winding up as a fisherman
Avaler le compteur,........................swallowing the counter
Regarder sans voir.........................not seeing it while looking at
Le calendrier.................................................................the calendar
Qui tombe en poussière..................which crumbles into dust.
Qu'elle est loin, la terre...................How far is the earth,
Qu'elle est loin, la terre...................How far is the earth!
Le calendrier..................................The calendar
Qui tombe en poussière..............................crumbles into dust.
Qu'elle est loin, la terre...................How far is the earth,
Qu'elle est loin, la terre...................how far is the earth.



[note: this is a very personal translation-interpretation]
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April 15, 2008